A year ago, someone accused me of something in a bit of a bizarre way. I shoved it aside for a while, but it turned up in my brain again recently. Brains are strange like that - pulling up things you thought you'd moved past, or had completely forgotten, dusting them off and handing them … Continue reading The overwhelming awe of betrayal
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Botanic Gardens
Through the screen doors of discretion
I woke up this morning with a Dar Williams song stuck in my head, which is never a bad way to wake up. The specific song dredged up by my subconscious was Iowa, one of my favorites from her. The internet informs me that it came out in 1996, which was a pinnacle year in … Continue reading Through the screen doors of discretion
Magic and muses
There's a magical thing that happens sometimes with any creative process. I had characters and a setting and a vague idea of what they might be up to, and I let it percolate in my head for around a year. Simmering there, in my subconscious and memories and neurological coding, and then all of a … Continue reading Magic and muses
For those who learned to endure
I was talking to someone recently about the astoundingly ignorant response of "Why didn't they just leave?" that people give sometimes in response to things like abusive relationships or cults or toxic friendships and things of that nature - and how people who have never been in those situations like to convince themselves that they … Continue reading For those who learned to endure
The end of all things 2021ish
It's the end of another calendar year, and it's tradition to have new year's resolutions. I don't do that anymore. My goals are ongoing. But I do like to reflect a bit, because one thing I've noticed as I've traversed further into adulthood is that if you're willing to work at it, your level of … Continue reading The end of all things 2021ish
Give yourself the gift of anger
I found this in my online travels, and since I'm not much for the "traditional" Western Christian version of Christmas, I thought - here's an actual useful lesson for the holiday that purports to be about lessons: It's okay to hold onto anger. You are not obligated to forgive. Not "because it's family." Not "because … Continue reading Give yourself the gift of anger
A-ego
I remember back in my first grad school program in the early 00s, we explored the idea of whether or not something can exist outside of language. And yes, of course it can objectively, but if there's no language to describe it, does it really exist? What does it mean to exist? Does it mean … Continue reading A-ego
Unmoored
Every time I finish a writing project and put myself on hiatus, I end up feeling all weird and anxious and like I'm forgetting to do something really important. It's much worse this time, because I've become so disciplined about writing that now I feel almost a bit lost. I have other writing projects I'm … Continue reading Unmoored
There’s life in a fairy tale
"When a boy changes his life, it's called an adventure. When a girl does the same, it's only a fairy tale." - Emma Donoghue I recently listened to Emma Donoghue speak through Denver's Pen & Podium series, and she's lovely. And her books are dark twisted places that always manage to surprise me in various ways, which … Continue reading There’s life in a fairy tale